Hello! uhhhmm.... I'm here, updating my blog again. ahaha =D

so anyway, this past few days, I've been learning new things... I just realized that this quotation is soooo right:

Relationship doesn't mean the more sacrifices you make, the better ending you will get.

well, why? becuse there are some things in life that, you do soooo much effort yet, what do you get in return? it's either the one that you've been wanting or the contrary, that's the sad truth, but people are so into things that they wanted that they are willing to make sacrifices, even though it will only hurt their own selves, life is unfair, right?

another thing is that, it's very very very difficult to take something or accept something that you don't want to accept and yet, your heart wants it. I really don't know how to picture the situation here so just bear with me, if you have any questions, just leave it in the tagbox =D

you see, if someone makes a mistake and that someone is really close to your heart, it won't be easy forgiving him/her , right? that someone needs to move, and yet, ANOTHER IS THAT, when that someone makes a move and you were deeply touched, you will just forget that mistake that he/she made, WHICH IS REALLY LIKE, ILLOGICAL AND UNFAIR. I mean, the move that he/she made is really sweet and because of that, you will forgive him/ her, AS EASY AS THAT, no matter how tortured you are of the fault that he/she made, you will just forget everything and think of starting again.

then, here it comes, you have moved on with your life, you're now happy with that someone and one day, you just found out that he/she made another terrible mistake, you will get hurt again and you will forget how much effort he/she applied just to have your forgiveness and how sweet his/her move was, you will forget everything of that, I mean everything, it's like, YOU WON'T CARE ANYMORE, ALL YOU KNOW IS THAT YOU HATE THAT SOMEONE AND YOU THINK THAT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU TO FORGIVE HIM/HER although you really want to, but the mistake he/she made is really a burden to your heart, it's like you want to forget him/her because of this, hate him/her for the rest of your life and just you know, sweep that someone away and start all over again, without the someone. ALTHOUGH THE THINGS THAT SOMEONE DID JUST TO HAVE YOUR HEART AGAIN REALLY MOVED YOU, AND YOU WANTED TO HOLD UNTO HIM/HER FOREVER, you just can't bear the pain that you're feeling, it's like because of him/her, you felt that life is worth living but at the same time, because of him/ her, you feel like dying.

Love is an evil thing, isn't it?
it makes you feel all sorts of emotions, good and bad.

AND.I.FEEl.LIKE.CRYING.RIGHT.NOW.
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huhuhuhuhu.

I just don't know but why is the world so unfair? I learned that, to forgive is easy but to forget takes a lifetime, to love is effortless but to be with the one you love is a challenge, to hate is cruel but to love the one you hate is a crime.

I have learned so many things in 3 days, should I be happy? o.O

I don't even know. tsk.tsk.

It was like, when that someone was trying to get you back, that someone sounds so sincere and like, that someone was willing to do everything for you just to be back into his/her arms. He/she sounds so sweet, it makes you weak, it makes you crazy, it touched you so much that you could cry a river of tears. like, it changed everything, you'll forget how much hurt you have experienced from the past and move on, it'll make you believe in the saying "Past is past" and go on, continue with your life like nothing happened.

but when another fault or mistake strikes, everything that you felt before will go on the contrary, you will hate that someone, curse him/her, forget that you even met him/her and everything, but at the same time, even though how tormented you are, you'll be pleading:

"Can't I just accept the sorry he/she did before? because it really moved me, It was really sweet and, my god, IT WAS JUST HIS/HER FAULT THAT'S BLOCKING MY HAPPINESS."


wuaaaaaa. IDK WHAT TO DO! WUAAA. I'M GOING CRAZY. xD

it was like, you're so lucky to have that someone, it's just that, he/she made a mistake.

crapness.

that's all =D

p.s. this is only based on my observations. :D