"They say tomorrow seems so far away."


no, i'm just kidding haha =D but really, i feel like wanting to die tomorrow, FIRST DAY OF CLASSES! maaaaaaaaaaaaannnn, I'm so like, nervous and everything. heheh =D I really need to calm down.

I'M OFFICIALLY A FOURTH YEAR STUDENT IN 13 HOURS.

wuaaa, I'm not really ready, as a matter of fact, I have no idea what would I be waring. eheheh =D

so anyway, since i'd be dying tomorrow, i would like to share you people the youtube videos that I have enjoyed watchin during summer =D

1.ASAP 09 KANTO BOYS SPOOF METEOR GARDEN JUNE 7,2009



2.10.4.09 Lee Min Ho - Dunkin Donuts ( 던킨씨엡 ) CF - Version A - So cute :D


[not really a fan, I just enjoyed watching it xD]

3.Hana Kimi Taiwan Re-run Trailer

4.Hana Kimi Taiwan Re-run Trailer 2

5.Seductive Smokey Eyes Tutorial


6. How to be Emo (nigahiga)

7.How to be Gangster - nigahiga

8. Movies In Minutes - Twilight


9. Miley Cyrus - 7 Things - Spoof

Hello! uhhhmm.... I'm here, updating my blog again. ahaha =D

so anyway, this past few days, I've been learning new things... I just realized that this quotation is soooo right:

Relationship doesn't mean the more sacrifices you make, the better ending you will get.

well, why? becuse there are some things in life that, you do soooo much effort yet, what do you get in return? it's either the one that you've been wanting or the contrary, that's the sad truth, but people are so into things that they wanted that they are willing to make sacrifices, even though it will only hurt their own selves, life is unfair, right?

another thing is that, it's very very very difficult to take something or accept something that you don't want to accept and yet, your heart wants it. I really don't know how to picture the situation here so just bear with me, if you have any questions, just leave it in the tagbox =D

you see, if someone makes a mistake and that someone is really close to your heart, it won't be easy forgiving him/her , right? that someone needs to move, and yet, ANOTHER IS THAT, when that someone makes a move and you were deeply touched, you will just forget that mistake that he/she made, WHICH IS REALLY LIKE, ILLOGICAL AND UNFAIR. I mean, the move that he/she made is really sweet and because of that, you will forgive him/ her, AS EASY AS THAT, no matter how tortured you are of the fault that he/she made, you will just forget everything and think of starting again.

then, here it comes, you have moved on with your life, you're now happy with that someone and one day, you just found out that he/she made another terrible mistake, you will get hurt again and you will forget how much effort he/she applied just to have your forgiveness and how sweet his/her move was, you will forget everything of that, I mean everything, it's like, YOU WON'T CARE ANYMORE, ALL YOU KNOW IS THAT YOU HATE THAT SOMEONE AND YOU THINK THAT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU TO FORGIVE HIM/HER although you really want to, but the mistake he/she made is really a burden to your heart, it's like you want to forget him/her because of this, hate him/her for the rest of your life and just you know, sweep that someone away and start all over again, without the someone. ALTHOUGH THE THINGS THAT SOMEONE DID JUST TO HAVE YOUR HEART AGAIN REALLY MOVED YOU, AND YOU WANTED TO HOLD UNTO HIM/HER FOREVER, you just can't bear the pain that you're feeling, it's like because of him/her, you felt that life is worth living but at the same time, because of him/ her, you feel like dying.

Love is an evil thing, isn't it?
it makes you feel all sorts of emotions, good and bad.

AND.I.FEEl.LIKE.CRYING.RIGHT.NOW.
akes
huhuhuhuhu.

I just don't know but why is the world so unfair? I learned that, to forgive is easy but to forget takes a lifetime, to love is effortless but to be with the one you love is a challenge, to hate is cruel but to love the one you hate is a crime.

I have learned so many things in 3 days, should I be happy? o.O

I don't even know. tsk.tsk.

It was like, when that someone was trying to get you back, that someone sounds so sincere and like, that someone was willing to do everything for you just to be back into his/her arms. He/she sounds so sweet, it makes you weak, it makes you crazy, it touched you so much that you could cry a river of tears. like, it changed everything, you'll forget how much hurt you have experienced from the past and move on, it'll make you believe in the saying "Past is past" and go on, continue with your life like nothing happened.

but when another fault or mistake strikes, everything that you felt before will go on the contrary, you will hate that someone, curse him/her, forget that you even met him/her and everything, but at the same time, even though how tormented you are, you'll be pleading:

"Can't I just accept the sorry he/she did before? because it really moved me, It was really sweet and, my god, IT WAS JUST HIS/HER FAULT THAT'S BLOCKING MY HAPPINESS."


wuaaaaaa. IDK WHAT TO DO! WUAAA. I'M GOING CRAZY. xD

it was like, you're so lucky to have that someone, it's just that, he/she made a mistake.

crapness.

that's all =D

p.s. this is only based on my observations. :D

1. Put your iPod (or MP3 player, iTunes, etc.) on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing the note as well as the person you got the note from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
BORN FOR THIS.

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
OUR SONG.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GIRL?
What hurts the most. WUAHHAHAH

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
My Friends Over You =D

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Ur So Gay - WUAAHHAHAHAHAH

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Get Back. huh? WHAT?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Gives You Hell.

WHAT IS 2+ 2?
I Kissed A Girl.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
WOMANIZER - NICE ONE! xD

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I THINK I'm IN LOVE - WUAAAA> COINCIDENCE!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Fences - uhhh... okay?

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
My Eyes Burn - NYAHAHAH

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
GOING UNDER - what under? WUAHAHHAHAH.


WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
BORN FOR THIS - NICE! HAHAHA=D

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
STAY ( I MISSED YOU) - i will haunt you down! don't worry! AHAHAHHA =D

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
THE NEXT BIG THING. - WHAAAT?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I MISS YOU - CHEEEEESSSSYYYYY! AHAHAHA =D

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
NICE PIECE OF ART - O.o sure? AHAHHAHA =D

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
CHECK YES JULIET - huh?!

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
BLEEDING LOVE - MAI GAWD.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
MY PREROGATIVE - NICE! AHAHHAH =D

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
HURRICANE STREETS - uhh?

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
LYING IS THE MOST FUN A GIRL CAN HAVE WITHOUT TAKING HER CLOTHES OFF - nakakaiyak naman talaga. AHAHAH =D

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
I Caught Myself - CAUGHT WHAT?!

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
NAKED - WUAHAHAHHAHAHHA.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
FACE DOWN - SHOOT.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
THE BEST DAMN THING. uhhh? HAHAHA =D

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
HERE WE GO AGAIN.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
WHEN I GROW UP. by Mayday Parade.

GAAAAAWWWWWWDDDD. 6 days to go! I can't believe it! wuaaa~~~ I'm finally a 4th year student lah! yipee~~~ i somewhat feel nervous at the same time, hell yeah, I don't know why, I just feel nervous thinking about the 1st day, it's weird because

1st : I'm going to be a 4th year student.
2nd: I've been in that school for how many years
3rd: I WILL SURELY HAVE THE SAME CLASSMATES.

why do I have to worry at all? It's just like I'm meeting my friends and it's really weird because we still stayed in contact this summer gawd. someone help me. I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON.

i bet it's insanity. haha =D idk, but i think it's because that this summer, I somewhat changed, there was a day that I feel like dying, then there was a day that I want everyone to die *touchwood* then there's a day that I wanted to be alone, and another day that everyone would just shut their mouths up. haha =D

or maybe it's because that I'm afraid to face the responsibilities of a 4th year student? I've talked to some past 4th year students from our school that have graduated already and they gave me sometips about being a 4th year student, how to handle the pressure and what are the responsibilities. I guess those stuff scared me?

i think it's a NO.

because i'm never known as a student who takes responsibilities, i only take them when i need to or have to, I'll just do my part, that's all, heck, I'm NOT EVEN A LEADER. I'm an average student. wuaha~~

maybe it's because I'm nearly entering college, I've thought of it but no, it isn't it doesn't have any connection of me attending the 1st day of me being a 4th year student, right?

oh well, i guess I'm really weird, let's just skip that topic. haha =D i love writing long blog entries and i don't care if anyone would read it, I'll rather have no one to read it rather than a flock asking questions about my latest blog entry.

but anyway, i would still like to post whatever's on my head, It's okay that a random someone is reading this blog entries of ,mine, at least they have an idea what's going on. ahahaha =D

anyway, I just realized that I love "Love Game" by Lady gaga, i just don't know why am I not downlaoding it yet, heheh. I have already downloaded "When I Grow Up" by Mayday parade.

xD

that's all for now =D

It's been a long time since I last updated this blog, [oh, yeah...] I was busy throughout the whole May, because I have to attend review classes for UPCAT, it's really tiring, at the same time fun :D

anyway, our school year will officially start on JUNE 10, 2009, and 10 days from now, I'm officially going to be a 4th year student :D I'm excited at the same time nervous, haha :D I want summer to be extended, I really miss my classmates though, Our school campus is currently undergoing a renovation, yay! haha :D through the years, the campus is getting better and better. nyaha~~~

oh, so what else am i going to say? well, I'm really happy because ABS-CBN will be re-airing Hana Kimi Taiwan! wuahahah~~~ so happy :D [i'll be happier if there will be HKT2. hahah =D]

anyway, back to the school thingy, i enrolled last may 4 [so early. wuahahha] and i didn't know what are the requirements, I asked my fellow classmates who have already enrolled but there's no avail, same goes to them, they didn't know what the requirements are, after some time, my mom decided to call there instead and ask what is needed, and guess what, for a 4th year student, we will be needing 7 notebooks and 2 graphing notebooks, ahah :D i feel like i'm back at being a grader again, having many notebooks, I'm used to using a binder instead of notebooks. haha :D but i had fun buying them, i like choosing covers. haha :D and the most that i'm happy about is that my mom bought me a bag, ever since i started highschool, they never bought me a bag for the school year, i can only have a new bag if they would give me a gift during christmas or on my birthday. ahhaha :D

this is the last year of my highschool, I should give my best! haha :D